Carolyn’s Life

I was born into an Amish Home and lived without electricity, Television, or modern conveniences my entire childhood. When we wanted to go somewhere we either rode our bikes, used the horse & buggy or hired a taxi driver for longer distances. We went to Church every Sunday which was held in a neighboring Amish family’s house and it alternated every Sunday. Church services consisted of 3 hours of sitting on backless wooden benches, singing, praying, and listening to sermons.

I attended a small one-room Amish School, and yes, that is me on the far right, with all my schoolmates on a hayride when we went to a neighboring Amish school for the day. I loved learning and school was very easy for me, but in a lot of other ways school was torture for me. I felt like the misfit was on the receiving end of a lot of mockery. Most times I wanted to just disappear and never be seen again.

At 15 years old, I graduated this Amish school with an 8th grade Education. (Later in life I got my GED and also did some college.)  My favorite memories of school were having Christmas & end-of-year programs where we would perform in front of our families and friends. We were never allowed to put on full-fledged plays, but I always visualized it as close to a play as I could. I loved live plays and skits. Acting and being in front of an audience was in my DNA. I remember dreaming about being an actress, but as an Amish child it was out of the question.

My lifestyle was built around security in our structure of life. If I lived within the requirements of the church standards I was considered a good person and was taught that I have the best life possible being Amish. Being Amish was the only lifestyle I thought I could ever have, because I thought if I was born Amish I had to always be Amish or I would go to hell.

As the oldest child in a family of 5 girls and 4 boys I learned responsibility at a very young age. Life wasn’t easy, and I experienced heartache and abuse at a young age and throughout my life.  At 17 years old I received a clear message from God that my life experiences were going to be used to help other people be alleviated from the trauma in their life. I was in deep connection with Jesus and he was my greatest teacher and was gently leading me forward because he had things he wanted me to accomplish that I could never accomplish being Amish.

In February of 2006 at 31 years old,  I left the Amish and Mennonites because of a direct call from God asking me to leave. Leaving the only lifestyle I knew and all my friends was the hardest thing I ever did. I plunged forward totally in faith. I knew the call was from God, so I did it without a shadow of doubt, knowing it was the right thing for me. The journey was not easy.  It was filled with lots of struggles and trials. My heart was always set on following the “Father” and my greatest desire was to be a Woman after God’s Own Heart. (like King David) That remains my heart’s true quest to date.

Now today, even though I greatly appreciate the culture I grew up in and what I learned from that lifestyle, I know I would NEVER go back. I know God was leading me to something greater than I could ever have accomplished there.

My journey was one of seeking for answers and a Purpose of my life. Along this journey I discovered everyone is looking for PURPOSE deep in the core of their heart. Many people find it hard to get connected to that inner heart core, the place called “I AM”. Things happen, and we experience pain. We put a lid on our heart to not feel the pain and we end up living life out of our reactions. We try to function with less than our full heart making it impossible to live life fully and completely.

My Purpose in life is to make a difference in the life of every person I meet. I care about people and I know how it is when NO ONE UNDERSTANDS.

I spent the next 11 years in the business world working a full-time job. It was my training ground. I visualized myself being in a position where I could live anywhere I wanted, not being tied to a certain geographical location because of my job. I always held close to my heart, the vision God gave to me at 17 years old that my life experiences were going to be used to help other people. At times I got depressed because my job took all my focus and energy and I wondered when God would open the doors to be able to fulfill the promise he gave to me at 17 years old.

In December of 2016 I took another life-changing plunge that was almost as hard as leaving the Amish. I chose to leave my job and build my own business doing Web Design, Marketing and Information Technology. I also invested into more training to help me obtain the techniques to use to help people overcome Trauma in their life. This allowed me to start my 2nd business of Helping People Overcome Stress and Trauma in their Life.

6 Months after leaving my job I realized I was now free to live WHEREVER I wanted to, and I discovered that I am a Wanderer at heart. I need my space, privacy and a place to call home but I want to travel. Here is where the idea was born to get my own Coach and travel. I can go anywhere and always be at home. 2 month later one morning God dropped these words to me. “This is your time, it is here now!” My spirit inside me leapt because I knew exactly what those words meant. I knew that I was going to be traveling to make a difference in the world and in the lives of the people I met.

On November 29, 2017, 2 days shy of my 1st year anniversary of leaving my job, I went to pick up my new traveling home and thus began this journey on the road.

I look forward to further accomplishment of even greater goals. My life will only be lived once and I want it to be the best it can be.